Jesus Freak

I have not been able to keep up with my blog, and for that I apologize. But, now that I am back on I will tell you about my newest adventure. I said goodbye to Ethiopia and made my way to Rwanda. I didn't expect it, but I fell in love with this new place. The lush green hills, the red dirt roads, and the people who wave from the street. it is all so beuatiful. It does not make me forget my homesickness or the loneliness when I'm alone in my house. I have been trying to find a good way to describe it. Katie Davis put it perfectly in her book, Kisses from Katie.
"The Contradiction comes when I realize all these experiences and emotions are real. The happiness that gives me chill bumps is as deep as my loneliness. My sense of certainty about being exactly where God wants me is solid, but just as firm as the fact that I wonder at times what on Earth I'm doing here. The frustraton that threatens to take over on some occasions is just as deep and true as the unbound joy I feel at other times. I love my new life; I truely love it. But compared to the life I had been living, it is hard."
When I read that, I felt very encoraged. Because, even though I am only here temporarily, it is my new life. I cant go back to the way I was before I came here. Nor do I want to. I have grown in ways, I don't think I could have had I stayed and gone to college like American society believes your supposed to. I don't want to be the "Average American". I want to be a crazy, out of her mind, Jesus Freak.